Healing and Looking Forward

There is no easy way to talk about this but here we go, 

My personal life has been some what of an adventure as of late but some of you have been reading cryptic facebook updates, After a good conversation with my therapist here i am blogging about what happen. 

In January 26th 2013- I was assaulted by my companion of 2 years. At the time i was in the city of Pittsburgh tending to some work prior to returning to Cleveland. The abuse had been there before and trying to escape the situation had not been easy. That very night my life was almost taken by violence and there is no easy way to talk about it 12 weeks out still, It's seemed like a scene our of a movie, I guess it did not hit till the swat team knocked out the door to rescue me that i was almost killed. I was immediately taken to an undisclosed location with some personal belongings and tended to my body, mind and spirit. None of this was by any means easy but friends really came out of the wood work including my own troupe sisters to take care and manage everything that was needed so i would have time to get up. 
 
I really can't explain nor understand my self still what dark place he was in to have done this to me but i have seeked light and have been healing slowly and surely with the amazing support that my friends and family have provided. I was very well taken care of by personal amazing people that hosted me for the time i was in Pittsburgh my family there is amazing and i would not trade them for the world. My Cleveland Family was been helping me from a far but as it goes am home and its pretty easy to breath at times. 


PTSD is still strong and it does not allow me to sleep at night, Random bouts of panic attacks make my life a bit harder but being back to almost normal does help a bit, My spirit is rising and my hopes are growing with the possitivity i recieve from family and friends. I truly love you and thank you for picking up so many pieces. 

Legally I have a Protection From Abuse Order that is active for my self and my family till 2015, The Court Of Common Pleas of Allegheny County have charged him with three counts Simple Assault (there was nothing simple about it) False Imprisonment and Harassment- Subject other to Physical Contact. The record information is online and avalable to view- 
Assult Record 


It took me some time to get out of the abuse but recognized it and made excuses for why it was happening, My advise for any of my fans that are going thru something similar is please DO NOT STAY LEAVE! do not make the mistake i did and many others have do to stay beacuse you love him and it will get better. Leave there is no reason why people should ever hurt you and touch you in any matter. The Domestic Violence Center In Clevleand  can help you in any way you can to leave and be safe. 


It in my heart to heal and in pursue my dreams and take care of my self and my family, This road is hard but its still not over. 
Updates will come as the time grows near to the trial. 
Please do not call or google his name or make threats to him or his family- Please respect that the law is dowing what they can to find justice. 


Thank you 
B