Words to Live by-

"Boring Women Never Made History"

It's been an interesting year to say the  least, Not in a bad way more in a GREAT! way. 

This year i traveled around the United States, Gained New Friends and Coworkers, Learned the impossible is not really a word in my vocabulary and saw yet again
my mother stand up to fight Cancer. 
This year was about Challenging everything as the new me but i can't really gather the words to tell you all how different life has been and how amazing people have helped me overcome said challenges with love and the proper attention i needed, 

My mother has been fighting cancer since April (again) Lung and Breast, I was able to be there thanks to Marilu and her generosity.  I was able to see her in before surgery and after but my mothers request stood. ( " You must deal with all of the things in your life and this at the same time. You can't drop the ball this is what it is to be an adult" ) I worked the whole time she was in surgery. Shows and their line ups, Emails and Press Kits. I think i eat too... 
Coming back was hard and being away was harder but learning that you can't control everything was the biggest lesson this year. 


You can't control Life! 


You see you have a world of people around you that help you when you ask, It has taken me a minute to understand that and move forward with the idea i can give people things and they can help me figure it out. Cue in the oh! that's brilliant right?


I produced with my team over 18  shows this year, worked as a managing director for Aura, Volunteered for Cleveland Pride Parade and Festival for my 5th year, Gay Games and More.  
Still even found that my dream of going to Burlesque Hall of Fame Came true, I even go to spend that time with old and new friends volunteering. 
The Festival was awarded by City and State in August! 
Our festival made a profit and so did my team,

If i feel down this year, I had help standing up - 

Realizing i never let my mom down was more important to me, 
I finally was able to have a freedom, One i did not know i had of just going with the punches. 
I was a more influential parent by finally brining my daughter out to meet my world, not sheltering her from it as i was attempting to do. She now has a chosen family.

The stress of my year became just work flow, 
It became life flow, 
It was just MY Life to live! 

Those words alone make me realize that am sitting here writing again with a cup of coffee thinking how amazing my life continues to be on my own terms now. 

My 30th birthday was celebrated and i did things i wanted to do and i had wonderful friends to sit there and just spend time with me. My party at The Side Quest was a table full of 
friends spending time with me and meeting each other, 
Not coming to a show to see me or catching me for 5 minutes on the phone.  

Lexinton, KY gave me the continuing flow inspiration and a new sister.
Charlotte, NC showed me more care and joy but gaining time with a beautiful new close friend of mine that was more then accommodating and wonderful to me. Even do i might have been heart broken there i moved quickly with out question out of the funk. 

All of these are life lessons, I did not let them tear me down or 
throw me off but I let them teach me! 

Teach me there is things out there that are just here to make you learn, I did learn! 
I can't wait to learn more this year coming up !

As chance may have it Mom is doing great with Chemo and her tumors are shrinking and soon will be gone, The shows have been productive and we are getting the stroll of it. I have a new Co Producer! I have a new Family! I have bad days and they are just fine. 


I Have You!  
And I Love You! 
Thank You! 
Bella Sin