Fire-

An element that creates and destroys but does manage to be swayed by other elements to alter their form. The ever lasting light of bravery and the most likely reference of recreation and renewed hope or reinvention just like the Phoenix it seems to come to mind today that there is lessons that i still need to learn. What are they? don't know.... 

It seems at times that you might see so many things around you lighting up but it's truly your self setting a blaze and renewing you self. 

Once i was told - "Stop beating your head against the wall, Stand back and see it crumble before you by the sheer fear of your will" 

Passion is a drive that i have had since i was young, regardless of what stood in my way, I got the goal that i set for my self and even do that is hard to believe in many ways form where I'm currently sitting. I have grown and succeeded to become that i once dreamed about. 

Tonight, I seem to be restless and with an impending loss upon my head - I seam to be blaming my self for such events in my life that i had no had in but i wonder .... Did i learn my lessons? I'm i indeed still beating my head on the wall? Might explain the headache* sigh*.

I feel a fire with in...I know i fuel it.. I know i control it... but will i allow it to consume me and let it give me rebirth? Let it wash me from all these memories that lay slumbering in my the back of my mind. 

"Iron Will" used to describe me and tonight the word compassion was used, I guess am trying to see what others do so i can understand Who i became and Why am i not embracing the change thrust upon me. I strive for challenge and innovation.. travel and adventure but in all i crave the home life and creation that comes from it. 

Ancestors light my way

wi

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