Brace

The lesson plan for this year did not include being as harmed emotionally and physically by an abusive relationship, but yet i thrived on leaning on friends and family for support and remembering to "BRACE" my self for my next big hit. At times i forget that we can just fall down and get back up again, Dust our self's off and learn from your mistake instead of trying to "brace" for the next hit. 

Breathing became easy once i learned that i can only control my self and my life, not that of another what they feel or might do. I can also control my reaction to the effect they might take on me as a person of many emotions. We all have been there experiencing Passion, Anger, Dissolution are feeling that are valid as human beings but why do we feel like we need to stop our self's from processing these feelings naturally? Dealing, Coping, Understanding- Knowing that we can heal our self's from that wrongful doing or that tragic event that was inflicted upon us but instead of doing that we "brace" our self's and live in fear of "What If" "Just Incase" "I'm not sure" "I'm Afraid".

Living in fear of the known and becoming blind of what is in front of us, Questioning and wondering if this in fact is real... and inflicting that doubt on to another. I have to always remember that yes i can learn but not doubt and let my heart and self go to that one lesson i was put in front of me and live that life i always keep taking about living. 
Time flows but yet i feel like am frozen in other peoples stories.... 

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There is nothing more dreadful than the habit of doubt. Doubt separates people. It is a poison that disintegrates friendships and breaks up pleasant relations. It is a thorn that irritates and hurts; it is a sword that kills.

Buddha