It's a long time since i have last spoken to you but here we are at 4am in the morning not being able to sleep - So here i am writing :)
September has been a very interesting months both spiritually and physically but in all pretty good, Kavarett Vulgare at The Beachland Ballroom was an amazing show am telling you AMAZING! It was great to bring my Pittsburgh friends up here singe it was so visually beautiful and artistically well put together and thank you to the fans and friends that turned out! You are keeping things in the entertainment industry alive.
I have much love for Macabre Noir and Phat Man Dee two Pittsburgh gems and staples of their art they go together beautify and Penny De la Poison along with Deville and Gypsy well they were the icying on the cake so to speak.
The beauty of it all was so up lifting... I had the pleasure of performing with them often and im thankful to called them friends!
It seems to be going around still the negative remarks to a curvy female, Its tragic bur true some people are more excepting of thinner girls then they are of bigger girls. Thankfully that is to change.
I like to tell my curvy self that am beautiful but yet i know im not every ones cup of tea, but for those girls out there my size every time they attend a show and tell me they feel good that they can see some one their size on stage and thank me for being who am i am. That is a slice of humble pie served with ice cream on the side ladies and gents!
My body is changing and i just want to be healthy i dont ever want to lose the curvy you know.. but i see all these girls starving their selfs to get to a size 0? that is not right!
I once had a student named Jessica and she honestly inspired me she was working to be healthy at her size she would have been considered a bbw but girl can bench press 250 pounds !!! I mean common the determination both physically and mentally are so difficult i bow to her honestly do. She continues with her dream to be healthy and she is not hoping for a size 0 my friends she is hoping for a healthy more fun filled tomorrow! now that is the thing right there the mindset every one should be in!
I will soon start doing that my self loosing the few pounds i want to lose to reach 150 that is my goal :)
My good friend kenn this week will teach me about running and biking and my man will help me to eat right so im quite excited to start this off!
So my advise to you curvy girl! Look and the mirror and keep saying your beautiful and believe it! because you are!
The hurricane effect
As of late other shows have been pooping up here and there with other troupes and it's nice to see the scene growing in a way, but in others it seems to be a race to the end of the finish line for the customer.
I stated very strong opinions on something via social media facebook and i was attacked for having said anything in public, not surprising and i guess i was also being to judgmental. but here is the thing-
There is close to over 40 to 50 burlesque performers in Cleveland, Some have troupes and others are independent but not all of them work with every one or attend every ones shows let alone support each other when it comes down to it.
Woman are going to Woman as Men are going to be Men but at times i don't see the sisterhood of the traveling pasties in burlesque in this area. Yes some of us are friends with others but in general we are all keeping to our groups.
Let us remember burlesque left us once already and after it became a trendy thing to do it will stay for some time longer but after that who will we have left? who will we entertain when people grow tired of it? where will they all go?
I like to be thankful and grateful to those that feed me and clothe me to those that buy my merch and cheer for me and i try to keep it new and exciting and go out to the big blue for festivals to try to come back more season and learn more tricks of the trade. Burlesque is really expensive but seeing good performers should not be chessy and out dated or expensive.
I wish we could all get along and flow together for a strong and healthy tomorrow but we will have to wait and see :)
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