There was always something holding me, I guess when it comes to my burlesque career my body image has been one that i make sure is in good representation on stage. When i first started panty hoes and my corset never came off my body, The world did revolve around my corset and stockings. I never wanted to show too much or to little.
<--- That's me at my first Akron Show in 2004.
I have never just not worn it, It has become something i became dependent on wearing and after 11 years, I thought of ways to not wear it with no success. To be honest i have been surrounded by body positive woman and men that have gotten me to embrace my body a little more. Yes! I like every one else in this planet have body image issues, It's not that i do not like my body.. I actually love it and think my curves are amazing but it still something i wear because i like it. In my resent trip to NYC there was alot of discovery !! I stayed with the ever so wonderful Matt Knife as i was performing in Stonewall Inn that week, He and i spoke about boylesque alot and what his thoughts were on it and that was lovely. He has a fitting coming up with Cheeky Cheetah and i knew who she was. She owns Glorious Pasties and she makes amazing panties and bras as well as pasties. So i contacted her earlier about and order, There we sat and talked about my insecurities and she showed me this panty she made and told me she could make it to were it would suit me and my needs and have it be G String Bare in the back like i have always wanted. So time went by and i finally got this pantie... I have to say our communication was flawless she really cared about what i wanted and i needed.. She was not trying to do a sell but she was trying to help me get to the place i needed with the security i needed to have.
The Arrival of The Pantie!
When they got here i was soooo excited but scared... I did drop my pants in my living room and put them on they were fitting me like a glove in all the right places. To tell you the truth and this is very personal. I did cry - Why because this was a long journey for me to arrive to and for me to move ahead with this decision was not an easy one...
The Pantie was build to be sturdy, The elastic was glittery in gold and the rhinestoning pattern was just about as amazing as it could get Simple elegant and it really impressed me the attention she paid to the pantie. When i called her she mention that she hoped the elastic was good and it did not cut into me. I send her pictures and she was as excited as i was. This put me over the moon!
What am i putting these with? Some one asked... I said with my number "A Pretty Girl Blue" No one in Cleveland has seen this number yet but for sure you have seen the costume construction. It debut as my headlining number at The First Annual Michigan Burlesque Festival.
Where am i making my body debut?
The Great Southern Burlesque Exposure Pageant in Charlotte North Carolina November 29th and 30th at The Visulite Theater. This year i will be competing just like last year am up for multiple categories but am hoping that this debut around my burlesque family will be the debut needed for me to finally step out of the body stocking and step into my new performing life. In all honestly there will still be times that i will use it, I like it but i don't want to depend on it or expect it to be there all the time and like many others. I do embrace my imperfection with my body, I never wanted a supermodel body let alone to be 120 pounds. The standard of my beauty will always be what i like to see and feel... for me and that personality and grace and confidence will go out to all others when they see me on the stage and off the stage.
Also- Dec 2nd 2013 at The Beachland Ballroom - I will perform the same number for you all with out the body stocking :) Just saying :) Seasons Teasing Doors at 7pm Show at 8pm
With love.. Here goes nothing- Bella
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